are you feeling bitter?

Can you recognize when you are bitter?

When I started to feel my feelings and allow my thoughts, and watch, them, I started to notice how bitter I felt, like, a lot of the time.

For me bitterness had become like the air I breathe. I had no idea there was so much of it that it had become my new “normal”. I thought everyone was bitter, all the time, about everythiiinnng.

And I mean, bitter about my teeth in the morning as I brushed them. Bitter about my beddspread. Bitter about my workout bra. Bitter about my kids complaining about chores. Bitter about my spouse not calling. Bitter about when he called. Bitter about what she said, they said, he said, I said. Bitter about the weather. Bitter about Mondays, weekends, holidays…are you catching the common denominator here to all this bitterness?

Yup, it was me. And if you have a lot of bitterness, resentment, judgement in your life as well, I hate to tell ya, but it has nothing to do with any of the above mentioned reasons. NOT EVEN POLITICS is responsible for your bitterness people.

When I betray my divinity. When I give away my agency, when I drink the kool-aid that says choices and circumstances define worth, opportunities and material possessions define happiness and success, how I behave in cultural norms defines my righteousness, then I have thrown my divine power out the window like a banana peel on a hot summer day.

I hardly am ever bitter now, and when I am? Well I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW it is because somewhere I just settled. Somewhere I fell back into scarcity that there isn’t enough. Not enough time, not enough money, not enough love, not enough acceptance, not enough peace for me to BE ME and stay true to MYSELF.

You are right in one area, there isn’t enough time anymore. There is not enough time to not step into our divine power and agency to create Heaven on earth. The time is NOW. No more settling. No more second guessing. You must do the work to heal your stuff. You are not a victim of the past, you are not a victim in the present moment, you will never be a victim unless you CHOOSE it.

You can choose to see the power in the present moment and choose to heal NOW. You can choose to be your future self now, not waiting for more money, more time, more acceptance, more safety, nope. DO IT NOW.

The future is right now, in this moment. And you feeling bitter and sad for yourself does nothing but dim the light of Christ within you, burning, shining, waiting to be SEEN and SHARED to HEAL the world. TODAY.